My Broken Friendship

Will You Just Let Me Be !!

For each step I take I will think of you after all your just the dirt grinding up in my shoe. How much I hate you now for all the things you done for you could never know because I hate you a ton. You make my heart bleed every time I see your face and my first tighten when I think of this waste. Rage fills my soul every time I hear your name anger fills my mind knowing nothing can be the same. I'm still building back up after you tore off all ties but I tell you it is for the better because I'm sick of your stupid lies. Pity yourself all you want I don't care anymore but I tell you time heals all wounds and complaining is becoming a bore. Why do you expect everyone to look at you as they walk by your know different then anyone this is something you don't understand why. I am not stupid so quit and leave me alone quit calling me a stupid b**ch and live your life on your own. You are not part of me, your the one that broke all ties. I don't give a damn anymore. I'm sick of you keep saying your goodbyes. I already Give up because you're really getting me pissed I don't care what you think of me. So, would you learn to let me be? Stop calling me a b**ch behind my back your just mad because I now don't want to be your friend. I didn't want to give up but you gave me no choice. So now I gave "the queen her highness" the end. I'm sick of you, you hurt me more then you think I hurt you. Stop blaming me for what has happened because I'm sick of feeling this pain by the things you say and do. Why do you even care? can't you just ignore after all? you are the one that can't forgive this is really becoming a bore. Come up with something new after all. It will just be another lie but at least you will have something else to do besides always saying goodbye. Blah.. blah.. blah.. I don't care. Will you please just end this now? because I'm sick of you saying I wasn't there. Stop taking things out on me. This is something you could never see. Its the truth though I tell you. So will you just let me be!!?

Whole Changes of My Life

It has been long time not update my blog -really miss it- ..

after a whole time that I spent, of course there are a lot of things happened and changed my whole life..

yeah.. my friendship, my love life, etc...
I can say that it is really make my life getting better than ever..

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My Cinderella story part I

Dear Allah,

Ya Allah give me the strength to pass this time,

the time when the step mom is angry to cinderella,

when she does not want to talk anything to Cinderella,

when she never look at to the Cinderella,

when she does not care to the Cinderella anymore..

is Cinderella did so much mistakes to you step mom?

is Cinderella did something wrong to you step mom?

is Cinderella hurt your heart step mom?

What do you want exactly from your Cinderella?

Cinderella just want you to know that she has feeling (it does't seem with her step sister that hasn't heart at all),

Cinderella hurt,.. step mom,

Cinderella pain,.. step mom,

and Cinderella cry...

A glass of milo or A glass of sweetened condensed milk????

I'm a milo lover, you cannot deceive me about the taste of it.

Well...today I have lunch in a small fast food restaurant.

I order a chicken steak and a glass of cool milo.

Then, I drink that "milo" ..but I was shocked because the taste is not milo at all (it is a real sweetened condensed milk!!!!). I very dissapointed with that and promise to my self that I will never back to that restaurant. I've already complain about that service, but nothing. The owner still said that it is a real milo. hello...I know so well how the taste, and it is exactly not milo.

Yah, for the first and the last I go to that restaurant..

Love Without Asking Return Part II

She is younger than me, but she has taught me about this life. Taught how hard this life, and how easy this life. Sometimes life felt so hard because you make it hard, but If you make it easy, it will be very easy. All of your life depend on your self. She taught me everything. Life isn't hard, just depend on which way you choose it. A long or shorth path, a smooth or rough way, a happiness or sadness tears. Only me myself and you yourself who know the answer. Just try to love everyone without asking return in our life ^_^

My favorite song ever

Back to december

I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life, tell me how’s your family?
I haven’t seen them in a while

You’ve been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
I still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I’d go back to December turn around and make it all right
I’d go back to December all the time

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn’t call

Then I think about summer all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And when the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I’d go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I’d go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And now you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If you loved again I swear I’d love you right

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I’d go back to December turn around and make it all right
I’d go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I’d go back to December all the time

All the time